August 21, 2013

Patahan #78

Faidza azamta fatawakkal 'alallah, Innallaha yuhibbul mutawakkilin. (Al-Imran : 159)

 "...And when you have decided, then rely upon Allah . Indeed, Allah loves those who rely."

Beautiful, right? ❤

When something feels so far away, so impossible to reach, so difficult to deal with, and I can't believe that I can do it... that verse strengthens me. Say what we need, tell our proposal, do our part, and let Allah do the rests, let us have faith to prepare ourselves receiving surprise from Allah.

Keep calm. Don't doubt, don't be afraid :)


By the way, this post-homesick syndrome is killing me. I didn't feel that way when I was in Diploma Three. I don't know why I am much weaker and tend to get lonely these days. I try to accomplish my assignments but my focuses fly everywhere. Please, start your engine, icha, run!

Then, I just get news that our cat has just passed away. Mom feels lonely at home so she has raised some cats and a hen as her friends. Mom cries a lot and misses her so much until she gets sick. Mom, don't be that sad... I wish there were magical door so I could have hugged her.

Virtual hugs will just give you virtual relief. I need real hugs. A lot of free 'pukpuk' to kick these random feelings.

Mom, why are your real hugs that expensive...? :(

August 20, 2013

Self Note: Apa Kabar Diri Sendiri?

Sepertinya sedang berada dalam masa transisi. Semacam dilanda post-homesick syndrome, kehilangan nafsu makan versus penyakit anak kosan males keluar beli makanan, atau merindukan seseorang secara berlebihan.

Ada benarnya bukan untuk selalu patuh pada nasihat bahwa segala yang berlebihan itu tidak baik?

Lagi males sama urusan kepanitiaan atau organisasi kemahasiswaan. Sedang ingin bersosialisasi atau belajar tanpa ikatan seperti itu, merasa nyaman, bebas bertemu banyak orang, punya banyak waktu untuk berkontemplasi, bertemu keluarga, mengunjungi teman dan kerabat, pergi ke tempat baru, membaca yang banyak, menulis yang banyak, mengerjakan tugas tepat waktu, atau cari uang tambahan yang banyak.

Rabb, jangan jauh-jauh. Bimbing aku, agar tidak diperdaya oleh egoku sendiri. Dan tidak melulu merasa sepi, atau diabaikan.


Catatan kaki: Selamat ulang tahun negaraku! Bantu kami mencintai dan menjagamu selalu. Dan, terima kasih yang tak terhingga karena sudah menyekolahkan aku lagi :')

August 16, 2013

Two Weeks of Gratitude

I am very grateful because I get two weeks holiday from my study assignment. The main reason why I'd like to go home is just to meet three most important people in my life: dad, mom, and brother. The rests are only bonuses. That's why I love staying at home everyday, loving doing nothing here.

with Senior High School friends :)

I'm just too afraid that I don't have a lot of opportunities to see them again. So it motivates me to enjoy every moment. I have chance to sleep and bake cookies together with my mom, to have good chitchat with dad and brother - he is in senior high school now and he's just having his 15th birthday. He was so happy with our little surprise :)

We made tomato rice with curry and pineapple to celebrate Eid as one of mid-east recipes. It was so delicious. I hope I can be a good chef for my future family like what my mother does :(

Happy Eid Mubarak. Please, forgive my mistakes and may Allah bless us. Let Ramadhan's soul trace our path everyday :)

Anyway, the day of going back to Bintaro is getting closer. The more I stay here, the more I'm not ready to leave my family :(

But someone is already missing me so much right there. See you again very soon, my dear. And again, welcome back routine, welcome back assignments. I promise myself to be better and to be more motivated in facing them :)